Camel Thorn Trees, Nambia. Photograph by Frans Lanting. 2011

It feels as though every time I try to have a voice – to not feel so heavy with all this sadness and this blame – I just get pushed further down the hole. And I’m so tired.

I’m trying to promise the people in my life that I will keep myself safe. That I will hold on until the years end. But I’m so exhausted. I feel like I could sleep for a thousand years.